You let me fall too deep

And i once again walking through the wrong door
without space to stand
after a long long journey
i still can't find the right door
to be inside your tiny little heart
maybe it's my fault
or maybe you should give a clue
or simply just give it more space
just a tiny space..
so i can fit to it
i think i should give up
i think there's no chance..
if you think i will never fit to you,
just don't let me fall..
too deep.
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believe me, it's just some random words that keep running in my head when i listen to this video. there's no relation to my private life. actually, the lyric and my random words are completely not connected. haha. then i'll say it once again.. who cares? ;) isn't that the way a song should be? stuck in your head everytime you did something, simply because you did the same thing  when you listen to the song for the first time? and what happen to me now, i listen to the song, and there are those words inside my head.

and here we go again! the 5 things that made my day (and again, it's 12.42am already, so..let's call it yesterday) :

1. Watching Modern Family again and in the end, i hate it when the season two is done. God, i want more! 

2. One of my exam's score is out, and thank God it's good ;)

3. Browsing through youtube, and found out so many good videos. promise to share some later.

4. Finally found my long lost sleep pant! God, i looove it. soo comfortable.

5. ................ this is hard. maybe just 4 things for today ;)

Don't Let Me Fall
Underneath the moon, underneath the stars
Here's a little heart for you
Up above the world, up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on to

But if I should break, if I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take a little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one that I've been waiting for
I'll give you all that I have to give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time, walk a little line
Get the balance right
Give a little love, gimme just enough
So that I can hang on tight

We will be alright, I'll be by your side
I won't let you down
But I gotta know no matter how things go
That you will be alright

You're just the one that I've been waiting for
I'll give you all that I have to give and more
But don't let me fall, don't let me fall

Underneath the moon, underneath the stars
Here's a little heart for you
Up above the world, up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on to

You're just the one that I've been waiting for
I'll give you all that I have to give and more
But don't let me fall

You'll be the one that I'll love forever more
I'll be here holding you high above it all
But don't let me fall

Words and Music

Words & Music 
You be words, and I'll be music
Ain't you heard, that's how they do it?
You're a poem when you're on your own
I'll try not to get in your way
But I've all the poems I have known, baby, you give me something to say

I'll be words, and you'll be music
I concur, I can't refuse it
You're a sad little tune by yourself
So lovely I wanna sing along
If there's one thing I know I can tell, when we get together we're a song

Whenever I'm with you it's true it's
Everything you say and do it's
Words & music, you & I

Listen here, I've gotta say it
It's so clear, the way we should play it
I will carry you, together we'll float through the sky
We can marry too, together just look at us fly

Whenever I'm with you it's true it's
Everything you say and do it's
Words & music, you & I

When we fight it's rock & roll
When we make it up, it's soul
And in the meanwhile, freestyle, play-by-ear, improvise
It's clear we go together, it's been like this forever
You & I and words & music

Whenever I'm with you it's true it's
Everything you say and do it's true
You and I are, you and I are
You and I are words & music
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5 things that makes me happy today :

1. Waking up for the 2nd time with nobody's around. just me, and it's so peaceful. (yes, 2nd. because the 1st time i wake up this morning is because my bro! haha. it's so hard to sleep again, but i did it! ;P)  

2. Eat my breakfast with a bowl of milo cereal cover with a cold milo milk. heaven!

3. Browsing with my hair wet after showering.

4. Did a self-photoshoot and planning to post it here.

5. My dad is home and asking me what to eat for tonight.

well, i'm trying to enjoy this not-doing-anything day from now on. i'm quite sure i'll miss this day, someday. haha ;)

bored

Every Teardrop is a Waterfall

I turn the music up, I got my records on
I shut the world outside until the lights come on
Maybe the streets alight, maybe the trees are gone
But I feel my heart start beating to my favorite song
And all the kids they dance, all the kids all night
Until Monday morning feels another life
I turn the music up, I'm on a roll this time
And heaven is in sight, Ooh
I turn the music up, I got my records on
From underneath a rubble sing a rebel song
Don't want to see another generation drop
I'd rather be a comma than a full stop]
Maybe I'm in the black, maybe I'm on my knees
Maybe I'm in the gap between the two trapezes
But my heart is beating and my pulses start
Cathedrals in my heart
As we saw, oh, this light
I swear you emerge blinking into
To tell me it's alright
As we soar walls
Every siren is a symphony
And every tear's a waterfall
Is a waterfall, ah
Is a waterfall, ah
Is always a waterfall
Every tear is always a waterfall, ah
So you can hurt, hurt me bad
But still I'll raise the flag, Ooh
It was a wa-ah-ah-ah-aterfall
A wa-ah-ah-ah-aterfall
Oh, Oh
Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall


yes, that is the newest single of Coldplay! yeaayy!

yea.. holiday already started since last week, but i have nothing to do from the day it started. i'm getting bored and bored and bored....  enough for browsing all day long, listen to music everyday, watching tv with mute mode, then eat and eat and eat, and sleep. can you imagine how boring is that? i supposed to be home tomorrow. err.. today, to be exact, since it's already 12.36 now. but the plan changed. *sigh

em.. during my not-doing-anything day, i did some blogwalking. here is my fave ;)

Cupcakes and Cashmere 

super love the pictures, DIY projects, and the person itself :)

Footloose & Fancyfree

i love love her pictures. and she is my senior when i'm in senior high school btw ;)

A Beautiful Mess

i adore the writer. and the little things she made. sweet and unique :)

i visited more of course, will share it later.. 

say i like you

and June almost over

i will begin to start over

it's too long to wait for new year

i can't wait to fulfill my wishes

what if..

there is a time machine

i will not be here now

staring at my poor-list

i will be right there..

say i can do it

say i like you from the first time we met

say...

..... something

just something to stole your attention

what if .......

daydream

what did you do on your daydream? or.. simply just when everybody fell asleep, and your eyes still wide open? well, it happens to me now. i'm sleepy, but my mind didn't sleepy at all. so, what i do now is listening to Andrew Bird's song, set my tv on mute mode, and just dreaming itself. what will i become 10 years from now? it will be nice if i'm in my own house with my husband's leg around me, and we are watching our children playing outside form the very big window. there will be two kids. one handsome boy and one pretty girl named Kevin and Anabelle. isn't that sweet? and we have those dreamy garden with those beautiful flowers, with a white fence covering our little house. ah, and i have my house near my family and friends house. so everytime i'm bored and since i can't cook anything except instant noodle, that is one of my biggest expectations ;p

believe me, i can do this daydream everyday especially in the middle of the night like this. 


oh, i found this pretty picture, and a picture of myself  :)

someone like you

what do you feel when there is someone who remember exactly what is your clothes and how your hair looks like when the first time he saw you? i feel like flying. haha. yea, that feeling was amazing. like.. how come someone like "you" remember me when i don't do the same thing to you? 

sweet  :)

here is some self-photoshoot ;)

The night before Friday The 13th

This is the day when i have to make such a difficult decision. well, not that i have to decide on that day, but i choose to.
what is the reason to make others wait for nothing? hope for nothing? i think the sooner the better. because the answer will not be change for... now? i don't know. but what i feel that time, and thank God i still feel the same, and no regret so far.
he may think i am rude. but, believe me.. you will suffer more if i postpone my answer. :( 

yea. you're right. this is all about my lovelife. *sigh*

this guy is the same guy i ever mention on my blog before. he suddenly make a confession about his feelings. well, i just say... suddenly. i usually can predict it. but that time, i can't. 

i don't know what i feel that time. okay, i'm blushed, i'm happy, i'm... nervous. but on the other side, i feel sad. because i know thing won't be the same anymore... oh, how i enjoy the friendship before that. :( 

we're arrive at the decision that we'll forget that night. we'll be friend like before. but i think it's almost impossible. i don't know that's because of me or him. we just can't be like before.

but i think this is the best way for him. well, for me too.. maybe?

he can start to use his time on the other girl. and i? maybe will do the same.... no?

ahh.. lovelife...

about you, woman

I do agree when people says that every woman always expect those fairy tale stories in their life. Especially their love life. They believe someday they will meet the prince charming (not to mention the tall and handsome one) kekeke. They also believe that there will be a happy ending in their love life. Although it will be hard at first (not to mention the forbidden love,yeah so universal, eh?). Is it wrong? of course not. We don't need to blame disney for what happen to every woman's expectation. They are sweet, aren't they? well, the truth is.. some of us will get hurt. But disney didn't told us it will be easy right? in every story, there will be a conflict, the good and bad one, the happy and sad moment. And what's the point?

The point is, eventhough it's just a fairy tale, it tought us something..

To reach what we want, there is nobody says it would be easy.. But when you put a little passion and believe in yourself, nothing is impossible.

Just try harder. Nothing is really over until we stop trying.

Secret army

man can love a woman with all his heart, but man can't love a woman forever. there always be another woman need to be loved by him. *eyesrolling*

woman can love a man with all her heart, but woman can't forgive a man forever. there always be this hate in a woman's heart. *sigh*

yes, we may never be with someone we love.. someone we love with all our heart.

but who can control our heart?

it secretly touched and secretly melted because of someone..

just let it be..

let your heart make a rule in your life..

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